Saturday, June 28, 2014

You call me out upon the waters...

I would like to write devos based off of the song "Oceans" by Hillsong, line by line. It has become my life song in response to all that has happened in my life this past year, and I think writing my story to this song will help immensely. 

Today's line: "You call me out upon the waters..."

God's calling in our lives can leave us feeling a bit unsure. When God calls us into a mission, a place, a job, a new start, etc. we may look at Him with an eyebrow raised, as if He is calling us to walk on water. The thing we need to remember is that Jesus physically DID walk on the water.

We don't always know what God is calling us to do. Sometimes it is just thrown into our lives and we must take it in stride. If we don't, our faith could waiver. When Jesus called out to Peter to step onto the water with Him, I'm sure Peter just stared and thought deeply about what was being considered. His first steps out onto the water was probably like that of a toddler learning to walk for the first time. They cling to the side of the couch, looking around for the next place to step to and grab on to, but Peter didn't have anything but a boat, open water and Jesus.

Circumstances in life can leave us feeling stranded and unsure about what God is actually asking us to do. I can't tell you how terrified I was to bring our newborn home from the hospital. The day we were released from the hospital and had to strap her into that car seat, then drive her home 2 hours, was probably one of the most unsure days and nights of my life. Now Mark and I would have to raise her without the luxury of calling the hospital nursery to our aid, or a nurse to show us again how to swaddle and bathe. Jesus certainly calls new parents onto the waters.

If that wasn't terrifying enough for me, I came home from the hospital a second time to still take care of a newborn that I hadn't taken care of in three weeks, and do it after open-chest surgery. Talk about waters! I remember just looking up at God and asking "What are you doing, God? How do you expect me to do this?" I could barely bend over, pick up my arms, and get in and out of the shower, let alone take care of an infant, but those were the waters I was called to at the time.

When God throws those unsure waters at you, consider the outcome of it. Consider where it will take you and what it will do for your faith. It will give you the opportunity to look at yourself and see just how capable He is in you.